Help...beneficial or just strange? Seraphinite

by Rae
(Phoenix, AZ)

Hey I have a question and it's been bugging me for a couple years now. I keep circling back to it thinking that it couldn't have just been something in my head.

A little bit of back info if it matters or plays a role at all. In high school, I was diagnosed bipolar type 1, a diagnosis that took a long time to receive, as I was initially almost labeled a schizophrenic due to musical hallucinations.

Either or, I've been put on medication, stabilized and been considered "bipolar in remission", just so anyone reading knows that this isn't just a moment of crazy. To be honest, sometimes at night when I'm laying quietly in the dark, it's like I'm hearing multiple people talk at once, never being able to make out what any one of them are saying and feeling frustrated.

I've been told that all of this (my diagnosis included) is from another realm, perhaps spiritual guidance and that I need to concentrate and meditate on that and hopefully slow it down enough to understand. I've never done this out of sheer fear that my symptoms actually show no improvement even though I take medication for the auditory stuff. Also, it feels deep down like I have some responsibility to do it, which has always scared me a little more because I don't know that I want it.

This whole story boils down to a moment 2 years ago. I started doing research on a few crystals, primarily for a friend who was struggling and who was into crystal healing himself. I saw a picture of Seraphinite in a book and was immediately halted in what I was doing and I had to read the description. After that I put it in the back of mind.

The next day I looked up a crystal shop and headed over there. As I was looking for some stones for my friend, I found a few pieces of seraphinite. Obviously, I had to at least touch it right? Lol

As soon as I held it in my hand, there was an intense high pitch ringing in my ears that I was almost caught up in for a moment before I quickly put it back down. It scared me... the intensity of it, the vibrations I felt in my hand as well as my ear. I actually left immediately and never bought a thing.

My question is, is this a normal trait of this stone? I've read about it but never encountered a similar story. And like I said, it keeps circling back in my thoughts. Whenever I see a beautiful stone or anything I think about it or have to tell someone about it... Please tell me I'm not crazier than I think I am.